severedmind's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- xdeadxEndx Swift-Anticoagulant Yeah its that time of year again where everything is supposed to be filled with joy and fun, but let me let you in on a little something lindsay is far from being filled with joy and fun. At this moment Im at my worst I feel like shit no matter what I do I cant get myself out of this phase. The holidays take a tole on me its like im not even the same person anymore. I tend to get irritated more, tend to take things to personal, tend to spend more time alone dwelling, and thinking maybe I should try to take my life again.
I have no friends here, The ones I miss so badly are in north carolina. I have no significent other. I guess you could say I am being emo but Im just being me Im so lost and I dont know where to find myself. No one understands the shit I go through they keep trying but they will never figure it out. I have no job Im broke as hell with no life. It seems like an never ending circle. Everyone thinks I just say this shit to get attention but Im not. I am only trying to state how I feel. I dont want to fucking think the way I do. Im tired of being run over, Im tired of people thinking I am just another useless person, Im tired of it all I just want everyone to fucking appreciate me for me. If people only knew exactly what is going on in my mind, exactly the things I think about, exactly the way I feel, Exactly how dumb I can be at times, If they really knew me it would be great but it seems as no one does. Im So tired of being hurts its driving me nuts Im tired of this sharp pain thats in my heart everyday and tends to never go away all I want in life is happiness but I cant find it and I know that no one can find it for me what do I do? Im at the dead end again and cant be turned around to go back the other way. 9:49 p.m. - 2004-11-28 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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