severedmind's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Thinking is such an EVIL Thing! Lil Wyte-Smokin song Sometimes I wonder if I think too much I think enough for ten people that could be a problem. Today sucked whats normal nothing seems to suprise me anymore I stayed in my pajamas all day finally got so bored I ended up going to bed at 3 something which didnt help considering I woke up at 6. I woke up this morning at 10 something I went to see what my grandma was doing and I'll be dammed that woman was watching half baked haha so I layed down with her and finished watching it with her she laughed her ass off. my grandma must have been in a stoner mood today considering that when I woke up at 6 something she was watching dazed and confused. What I found really funny was the fact that she asked me what hash was and then asked if it was the stuff thats in the can you buy at the store that trully made me laugh. Other than thatI didnt do much but do dishes cut the shit out of finger scrub floors and yada yada yada. Afterwards I watched a wee bit of television trying to take my mind off of things but then I ended up getting on the internet same ol shit I do every day. Tomorrows easter yay not really the only thing were doing is eating dinner which is the same thing we do everynight its just different. I have to go get blood tests done monday JOY the doctors get to prick and poke at me again whooohoooo NEEDLES how about no! I have to fast tomorrow I cant eat or drink anything for 12 hours isnt that going to be a bitch. Im going to get put on something else because this paxil is making me more suicidal than what I was at first it started out working ok but now its just drivin me insane Im so edgy and irritated like if I wasnt on anything I swear I dont know what to do with myself anymore Im tired of having all these goddamn problems im tired of putting up with other peoples shit and taking it. This weekend has trully sucked I have done nothing so far and I dont even know why I get out of bed in the morning for what to clean shit if I wanted to clean I would have my own house I would make messes to clean them up. Im going to get my license wendsday and hot dammit I better cause other wise Im going to be a royal fucking bitch. Tuesday ill be at home all by myself whats new my mom,grandma,and my moms friend jenny is going shoppin and out to eat while I sit at home and clean and be a fucking computer nerd. I still havent talked to zack but I did have a conversation with his mom hes back at work which is good. She told me that shes told him to call me but has he no I hate fucking leavin people messages for them not to return them well Im tired of his fuckig games I havent called him lately and Im not going to infact when I go to do laundry wendsday im going to ignore him completely and let him know how it feels. Knowing me Ill prolly end up givin in im just so damn predictible what a fucking life. But his mom I adore she told me to come and see her which I will. We have great conversations and she makes me feel so much better. But yes thats it for now Im still living unfourtunetly Im gonna bounce smoke this newport and go to sleep Ill take two trazadones tonight so I wont wake up till 6 tomorrow that way I dont have to put up with no ones shit thanks to the person that invented pharmacueticals how I adore thee! *michelle call me I need someone to talk to Im going crazy and I miss you so much lifes just not the same without your shoulder to cry on. Please call me im going to get a phone card soon, hope you and john are doing ok just dont forget about me I love ya gurl* 11:20 p.m. - 2004-04-10 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
||||||
|
||||||