severedmind's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Better within time... Three Six Mafia-Ridin spinnerz The last two days have been better monday night zack called and apologized for not coming to dinner and not coming over friday to get me he said that he felt bad and what not it was just that all that shit I gave him made his ass pass out for three days lol. He ended up picking me up later on that night and we went to his house and chilled and watched two movies it was Him,Chris,and me we watched 2 fast 2 furious I love that movie no matter how much I watch it and Lost In Translation now you wanna talk about a fucked up movie that is one hell of a weird movie I didnt understand a thing. But it didnt bother me none because I had zack laying on me and holding my hand haha. After the movie chris decided to play some game on the xbox a gay ass game so zack and I ended up going to his room to chill. I told him that I liked him and how I felt and what not and when we were sitting on the bed he leaned over and kissed me woosah im such a retard haha. That night was fun I didnt get home till 6:30 in the morning and as soon as I pulled in the drive way my brother and sister were gettin ready to leave for school because they thought I wouldnt be there to take them then zack gave me a hug and a kiss and was supposed to come over yesterday but thats ok because we didnt get no sleep at all and I know how tired he was. Im sure that all he did yesterday was sleep. Unfourtunetly I didnt get to sleep yesterday I had a stupid psych. Evaluation they put me on paxil for the depression and anxiety and trazadone so I can sleep at night. I have to go monday for all these stupid blood tests they want me to take grrr...but oh well even though I hate needles I have to do it. Right now every damn muscle in my body aches Im still tired as hell and it hurts to even move the slightest bit I also have this big as bite mark from zack on my arm which is just beautiful NOT. But yes today is st. patricks day so happy st.patricks day to all you irish kiddos including myself in that one. I dont know if zack is going to call me today or not but if he does Ill prolly end up hanging out with him and spending the night because my mom doesnt have to work tomorrow YAY! so I wont have to be home to take the kids to school whoohoo. My mom said some funny stuff last night when I had asked her if zack could come over and she was out bowling she was all like yes he can come over but dont lock yourself in your room and I was like what in the hell are you talking about and she said dont lock yourself in the room with zack make him wait for it hahaha I was like omg no my mom is not telling me this it completely threw me off guard I think that is the first time my mom ever said something like that to me before but she does have her reasons. Things are gettin weird between me and zack not that I dont enjoy hanging out with him holding his hand kissing him cuddling and all that good stuff but I would like to know where this is going to lead us and what he is thinking about all this I dont want to be a friend with benefits I know they say you cant have your cake and eat it to but hot dammit I will on this one. But Im not going to rush into things Im going to wait it out a little bit and see what happens if things start to get too confusing for me then I'll bring it up but I do like him more than friends and I think its the same for him but I dont know. But Im ending this journal for now I got chores to do and a bunch of other stuff till then remember watch out for little birdys they like to fly into windsheilds. 11:16 a.m. - 2004-03-17 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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