severedmind's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- whats your name ?whats your number? Cypress Hill-whats your number (this is cypress hills new song the shit is way tight check it out if you dont believe me!) Today there will be no shortbus learnin session I am just not up to it at the moment awww...dont cry my loves it will be ok there will be another one day! I havent really been up to much of anything lately Ive left the house a couple times but it turned into dissapointment :( I found out that ashley has been talking shit about me behind my back oh and you better believe when I heard that I was ready to find the bitch and beat the fuck out of her. She then had the nerve to call me so I was nice at first this is how the conversation went down: Ashley:hey Lindsay:Hey, whos this? Ashley:Its me ashley Lindsay:Ashley who? Ashley:Ashley P Lindsay: Oh duh! Ashley:whats up? Lindsay:nothing much you? Ashley:Nothing at my dads house Lindsay:lemme ask you a question Ashley:what is it? Lindsay:Have you been talking shit about me? Ashley:Talking shit what do you mean by talking shit? Lindsay:Talking fucking shit thats what I mean! Ashley:The only thing I said was how that was fucked up that You dissed me and went back home and I was by myself. Lindsay:First of all ashley if I fucking dissed you I sure as hell wouldnt have left you all my fucking shit there. Ashley:Yeah but it was your stuff Lindsay: and second of all you have no right to be talking shit about me behind my fucking back if you have something to say grow the fucking balls and say it to my face you need to realize this world doesnt revolve around your bitchy ass and If I dissed you you wouldnt of had anything! I have been nothing but nice to you and your going to sit around and talk shit about me thats fucking shallow and your lucky that I dont bring my ass to your fucking dads and beat the shit out of you! You fucking sit around like your all high and mighty and everyone else is shit wake up dear cause its not like that! Ashley:well tony told me that your mom called and said that you called her and told her to come get you! Lindsay:Ok so now were going to listen to what other people have to say? Tony needs to keep his fucking mouth shut unless he knows what the hell he is talking about Yeah I called my mom to let her know what the hell was going on but I never once told her to ocme and get me it was her decision to come and get me and if I wouldnt have went she would have dragged my ass with her I was in an unstable enviroment if it wasnt for you kissing up to your dads ass again you wouldnt have had the money to pay your rent. Ashley:Yeah I know how your mom is Lindsay:So Is that all you said? Ashley:Yeah Lindsay:are you lying? because if you are and I find out that you are im not going to hold back Im coming for your ass and its not going to be pretty! Ashley:thats all I said Lindsay:well I am coming to vegas this weekend to get my shit! and then I am out I dont want nothing to do with your ass so dont come crying to me when shit dont work out or to my mom because you done disrespected her one to many times and your lucky I didnt beat your ass then when I had the chance! You have pulled to many strings with me and I have had it I let people slide too much and I am not putting up with anyones shit anymore especially yours You can make your stupid ass mistakes by yourself for now on! Ashley:well, I am going to go Ill try to call you later Lindsay:bye!(hung phone up) So yeah ashley has been pissing me off a lot lately so has a lot of people I will not mention anymore names because I dont feel like stressin myself out with all this bullshit that I have to put up with. I was supposed to go to las vegas this past weekend but nikki never showed so I dont know what the hell happened to that one she was supposed to come get me friday. On friday morning me and my mom left to go get my check from my old job and yeah they didnt have it I figured that much they then told me to come saturday and that they would have it. Then we went and picked up my medicine from the pharmacy went to town bought some shit came home cleaned the house and made curtains while I waited for nikki to show. Like I said before she didnt show so I didnt do much but watch some tv and play on the internet. Basically the whole weekend sucked I got my paycheck on saturday and the motherfuckers shorted me like 23 dollars to a lot of people that isnt shit but when you dont have a job and any pay coming in it makes a big deal so I ended up taking the money and buying a shirt its this really cool pink black and white striped shirt its all rockabilly and such I also bought other stuff that You guys prolly dont want to know haha no its not bad! I dont get to go places much and it fucking irritates the hell out of me when someone says something and then does another but I understand with nikki plans prolly didnt fall through cause some shit happened. On monday my mom made my ass get up way early to go do laundry which didnt bother me cause I wanted to see zack well unfourtunetly I found out that zack didnt come into work until 10 so damn that all to hell because by the time we were done it was 9. Everytime I go to see him something happens and I just sit here wishing I was there talking to him Im an idiot I know but Im just like that. Its crazy because I really like this guy alot its just something about him normally I dont say anything because my feelings will change but these ones just keep gettin stronger every time I am around him. one of the ladies that works there during the week was there doing her laundry and she told me that she had told zack that I said hi and he blushed and that she thought he liked me well not only does my mom know I like zack but the whole goddamn laundry mat does My mom and her big ass mouth grrrr...but its ok, after we did laundry we went to walmart to buy some shit for the house and I ended up gettin more stuff haha I cant go into a store without wanting something. Well after shoppin we came home and cleaned and made lunch because my mom had a friend coming over for lunch after we cleaned and what not she gave me some percesets so I was feeling right by the time her friend came. We just all sat around talked then ate lunch cleaned up talked some more and that was about it. My mom also bought me some levi lowrise bootcut jeans which infact I like alot before You could never get me to wear those pants but these ones I love they dont look redneckish or anything they are black and stretch kind its hard to explain she also bought me a popeye the sailorman shirt and a white studded belt so I am happy about that one. This weekend she is going to vegas and she said that she would buy me some clothes from hottopic and these shoes that I have been wanting for the longest time so that makes me a happy camper! (remind me to never say that again) My grandma is supposed to be coming out in april to visit for a while so that should be cool I havent seen her in a while and would like to spend some time with her. Michelle is supposed to come out this summer but I have this bad feeling that she's not I dont know why its just there I would really love for her to come out and meet zack and go to vegas and all this other stuff but I have this doubt that she's not coming. As for this week Im not doing a damn thing that I know of my brothers counselor is coming out tonight to our house oh joy! because he went and told them that my mom didnt feed him the boi weighs 202lbs and is only 13 and my mom doesnt feed him fuck that she feeds him too much you would think just by looking at him and hearing that shit come out of his mouth he was full of shit he was just made cause she wouldnt give his ass no junk food. I have to go to counseling the 8th of this month theres a lot of shit that I need to talk about and get off my chest shit that I wouldnt write in here because its just way too personal shit that my bestfriend doesnt know. I just recently told my mom this stuff and she said that I needed to talk to someone about it someone like my counselor. so yes once again Ill make sure not to wear makeup that day. Other than that I have been very stressed lately and sometimes for no reason at all, whats going on with me Ill never know I just dont understand how a stanger can tell me whats wrong with me when I have no fucking clue at all. On a good note I do get to pre-order the new kottonmouth kings album this week and lemme tell you this one is going to be hella tight I have already heard some previews of their new shit and my god I just sat their stunned outta my mind. Preordering is a good thing considering that I get a full length free dvd with it so why the hell not just more kmk shit that I get to look at and drool over! other than that life is life you live it, you love it, you hate it Ill never know how I truly feel about life but maybe one day my views will change until then peoples take a hike this journal entry is DONE! 12:10 p.m. - 2004-03-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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