severedmind's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I am Worthless....I have NO ONE.... This Day An Age-(I have no fucking clue what the songs name is) I dont know whats going on with me anymore I have lost so much in the last two weeks I dont even know what to do.. Im Not happy no matter what I do I am just not happy. Theres just something missing in my life I feel as I am all alone in this place I just want to cry. I HAVE NO ONE!!! Today has been a very stressful yet depressing day. I got woke up at 5 something this morning by my mom cause she couldnt sleep so I had to go in her room and we ended up gettin in an argument no matter what I do I can never do anything right well then I finally went back to my room and went to sleep I didnt wake up till 10 something well I woke up and my mom came in my room and told me to get ready to go take the damn drivers test at the DMV. Well I got up and got ready first of all I had already felt like shit and then nothing I did this morning made me feel any better. Well I finally got ready and we were out the door. We got in the car and so I studied for the test I didnt get much studying in last night because I was out with some friends chillin and gettting stoned out of a gravity bong but thats besides the point. So basically I was cramming in the information as fast as I could well when I got to the DMV I had to fill out some paper work and then wait an hour to be seen. When I finally got back there the woman had to fill some more paper work and then gave me the test. It only took me five minutes to complete the test and then I gave it back to the woman and she checked it I missed 6 questions but I still passed If I would have missed one more I would have been screwed. But I didnt and thats all that matters. After all that I went and got something to eat and then came home. I had to clean when I came home cause no one else knows the meaning of that. I have just been in an Ill mood all day I am so damn lonely and its frustrating. I have no one to rely on or no one to talk to it just hurts so much. Its like no one understands me I sit at home while everyone else is at parties or hanging out with friends doing all this fun shit and where am I at home. I dont even have a bf ok I dont know why I dont but I dont maybe its cause I never get out who the hell knows. Im just so irratated lately with trying to find a job saving money and all this other shit its frustrating the hell out of me. And what makes it worse is that I have to sit and type about everything that pisses me off cause I have no one to talk to. Its official I am giving up on guys its just not worth the heartache for me anymore its sad to say or even do but I am tired of being run over or let down or just gettin hurt. Theres no one for me NO ONE! But Im gettin a little tired of repeating myself so I think I am going to go to sleep and have another one of those horrible dreams that I had last night. 10:58 p.m. - 2003-11-17 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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