severedmind's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- *Return Of STONER SHortBus* Listening to: T.V sounds Today started off as a shitty day and almost ended that way. what a day it started out pretty well till All this crazy shit started happening what the hell am I supposed to do shit yes kidz this is going to be another bitching entry. So lets start off with the begining of the day well I got up at 6 something and had to take my spoiled ass sister and brother to the bus stop well when I came back I knew I wasnt going to be able to go back to sleep well when I came inside my mom asked me to do all this shit for her cause she had to go to the doctors well I had to bake fucking two cakes for my sisters bday party clean the whole damn house and all this other shit which irritated me because it wasnt benefiting me any so why in the hell did I have to do it. Well after I did all this shit I finally had to go and get my sis,her bf,and my brother well we got home and my sister was being a nazi ass bitch and gettin an attitude with everyone after I did all this fucking shit for her lazy ass. Well finally all her "friends" reminding you they are a bunch of freshman get here she decides she is going to take over my room and bring all there stupid asses in there. Basically my day has sucked ass I am just in one of my damn moods which pisses me off even more. I would not have to be here in this fucking house if I were in NC I would be out partying my ass off and guess what I cant cause once again I have no friends here It drives me fucking crazy. My depression has been gettin worse lately and right now its at the peak where I could possibly go for another try to kill myself any way possible. I havent thought like this since september and for it to come back is very aggravating gaaaahhhh all I want to do is fucking scream. I wish I could just run away from this damn place and to top it off my mother is ignorning me like she always does when she gets around my sister and her friends what the fuck kind of shit is that and I have no earthly idea of why It even bothers me I am 18 how can I let shit like this bother me I guess its just all building up again. I eventually got so fed up with the shit I decided I needed to get the fuck out of the house so the only person I could call was ashley so I called her and talked to her and asked her to come and pick me up to get the hell out of the house. well when she got here I had her apoligize to my mom and scott for the way she treated them. Well she apologized and we were on our way. Well I got in the car she had her friend brandon there well they had some chronic they packed a bowl and handed it to me I was so damn irratated that I took it and smoked it. It was such a damn relief I havent smoked in three months cause I was trying to get a job but I was just so fucking frustrated I smoked that shit. Well when we got to kingman I was stoned off my ass I had also taken two vics before I left. We went to brandons house and smoked some more after that we went to her bfs house then back to brandons smoked some more then I took a codine then we went back to her bfs house and smoked some more. Right now I am so stoned I can barely type this journal entry it feels good to be stoned after 3 months I actually had a good time tonight I needed it considering I have been in the damn house for over 2 months and havent went anywhere. but Yeah Im stoned Im back to smoking reefer its a great feeling I never want it to end. Yes kids stoner shortbus is back in business just remember "if ya choke make sure its on some chronic smoke! Peace 3:53 a.m. - 2003-11-15 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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