severedmind's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- But Home Is Nowhere..... AFI:Cd:Sing The Sorrow:(Long Entry) Its been a while so decided I would write..Ive had a very interesting, suprising weekend. Lets begin..Friday was another ordinary day at school, My friend Nikki was in third hour and she was talkin to Eric this boy that I like and she had asked him if he liked me on a piece of paper cause they were writtin eachother back in forth. Well Eric had told Nikki that we were just friends and thats what he thought of me as.. Well I swear I dont understand that kid though because we were in 6th hour and he sits behind me and there is a empty desk that sits in between us well I was in class mindin my own business not talkin to no one when all of a sudden Eric started throwin paper in my hair and pushin the other desk into mine. Well then he was running his mouth like always then out of the blue he was like "Your friend Nikki told me something about you" and I was like what did she say and he got this big grin on his face and was just like "Oh Nothing" Well he kept bringin that up randomly in our conversation and I was like what did she say because I just wanted to see what he would say about it. But he wouldnt tell then he would come by me and pet me and try to kick me and stupid stuff like that. An step on my carebear and I was like dont step on my carebear then he picked up my bookbag and sat in on the desk behind me and sat there and started readin it. well that afternoon Eric rode the bus home and I was sittin in the seat minding my own business lookin out the window listenin to Deftones when all of a sudden this big ass paper ball thingy hit me and guess who threw it none other than Eric and he started laughin then he would keep look back at me and smile and stupid stuff like that . Then I waited for a while and hit him in the head with one and he was like "You stupid bitch, I hate You Im not talkin to you nomore were not friends". So I just sat there Minding my own business Knowing that He was just kiddin about that because he always thinks its funny then I was like oh so because I hit you with a piece of paper your not going to be my friend anymore and he was like yep you cut me deep you cut my emotions and all this nonsense then he came back there and sat in the same seat with me he pushed my bookbag over and brought his and sat with me and was talkin to me and takin my patches off of my bookbag and handin them to me So I was like "Thank you" and he held out his hand and gave me dap as they would call it back east and went back up to his seat and told me to get naked I swear that is one confusing kid. Well Friday Nikki spent the night, We spent most of the night being stoned and fucked up on 500mg hyrdrocodone We stayed up late watchin movies and talkin about stupid random stuff we eventually went to bed really late. Saturday,We had to get up somewhat early we went to bullhead to go shoppin we were going to go to the laughlin mall but they were havin the harley river run yesterday there and it was extremely packed harleys everywhere and people everywhere well I did a little clothes shopping got some cute outfits and managed to get home around 3 something. Well we came home and Nikki and I ate something and decided we were going to get on the internet so we got on the internet and talked to some people and smoked some pot and got hella stoned so it was fun then we ended up passin out at like 9:45 well we woke up this morning and she got ready to leave and her mom came and got here at like 11. "YAY"..Michelle called me today I was like so excited to hear from her it was great she was tellin me what happened last night and dude I was shocked so shocked I didnt know what in the hell to say that was some really shockin news but its good news too. Personally I believe that chad treats michelle like shit and even though he does all this shit she still loves him and I find that to be hard and I congratulate her on that too "YOU ROCK MY SOX CHELLE" and I believe you will in due time figure out what is in the best interest to you! Dude I so want to see chelle and all my friends and my mom is being like a total bitch and tellin me one minute that I can go to NC this summer and then tellin me the next that I cant and I wish she would fuckin make up her goddamn mind. Because I am tired of all these mind games that people play with me and all the heart games too because its beginning to become very overwhelming to me. I just want to find someone,someone that can love me for me and someone that wont treat me like shit and take my perspectives into consideration not someone who cant accept me for me and who only wants one thing. And knowin that Ill most likely be the person that never finds it and that really and truly hurts me and I miss my friends so much and that makes it even worse. I just wish I had someone here someone I could talk to well My mom once again said that I could go to NC and is supposed to get my ticket this week and I guess Ill just believe that when I see it. Dude I so want to see michelle and them I miss them extremely bad and sometimes when I think about it its hard to breathe which is a very bad thing but I am just going to have to live with it until I get to see them hopefully this summer because if I dont dude I will be totally fuckin pissed. well to top my day off I decided to go lay in the sun with my mom so I would have a chance to talk to her about things that were going on and I got fuckin sunburned ok I didnt expect that to happen but I guess that is what I get for tryin to get things the way I want them to oh well...Ill be leavin for now I shall update later until then... I LOVE YOU CHELLE and I KNOW YOU WILL MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION YOUR A TOUGH COOKIE AND REMEMBER IM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOUR MY GIRL AND PARTNER IN CRIME!!!!!!..... 6:25 p.m. - 2003-04-27 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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