severedmind's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Counting Down Nine more weeks and I get to go back to NorthCarolina I cant wait I talked to my mom about it the other day when she came to pick me up from ashleys cause I spent the night over there Oh man what I night but ill tell ya about that later but anyways me and my momz was talking about it and we decided if I can behave which is going to be a little hard I can go so I am bein such an ass kisser lol I dont care as long as I get to get on a plane hopefully dont die and go to Northcarolina to see my friends! well I had an excitin weekend I dont even know where to start at well lets see friday I was supposed to go with kyle and raven to a party but I couldnt get in touch with ashley because she was gone and my mom was being bitchy and wouldnt take me to the hotel to meet up with them so friday I did absolutely nothing but sit in my room and get high and fall asleep sometime I dont remember when I fell asleep..Then came saturday well saturday I didnt get to sleep I was awaken at fucking 7 in the mornin cause my mom had the day off and was finishin the house well since I figured I wasnt going to be able to go back to sleep I just got up and took and shower and shit and got ready later on that day after my moms and I stoner session she took me to town to stay the night with ashley cause she had to go to town anyways. Well I got to ashleys and we chilled for a while and watched 8 Mile then she called her friend adam and he came to get us well we went to adams house and chilled and hung out in the garage me and ashley sat on the weight bench then jamie came over adams brother and was asking me where i got my kik wears and shit hes really hott lol then he sat next to me on the weight bench and invaded ashleys territoral bubble as she would say and we chilled for a couple hours and was talking and shit then me and ashley and adam went to the bowlin alley so they could play pool cause i sure as hell cant. I just played deftones and system on the jukebox I ran into some of my friends from school then ashley ran into this guy she knows and there was like 3 other guys with him and this one dude had a four20 shirt on and i was like kik ass shirt and he was like thanks and we started talking and he asked me if i had any papers or a pipe and i was like no but do you have any weed and he was like yeah if you find a pipe or papers ill smoke with ya so I was on a mission to look for papers lol while I was searchin I ran into kyle and raven and they asked if we wanted to chill and drink and I was like sure so we made plans to meet at the hotel so then me and ashley left with adam and bought some ciggarettes then went to the hotel well raven and kyle showed up and they were trying to get ashley to drink the whiskey they brought so I did it cause she wouldnt then raven and ash went to the store to get some beer they bought me this beer called steel reserve it like has a 8.1 alcohol level for a beer thats good well then later kyle decides he is going to go to this party to get some weed and then come back so I made them leave colladeral well raven finally calls back at like 2 in the mornin and then comes over and brings a 12 pack of miller draft so here I am drinkin again I am already half fucked up. Well raven ends up sittin on the bed next to me and he is like fucking feelin me up and shit and I kept movin back away from him cause I didnt want him touchin me and he continued to do it then I jumped up off the bed and was like I gotta throw up and ran to the bathroom then came back out and sat in the chair he still continued to try to tickle me and shit so ashley told him if he touched me she would beat his ass. Well he was annoyin the hell out of us so about 6 he decides to go get kyle because kyle called well then he didnt remember where kyle was he was really drunk I dont know how he managed to drive the car well he leaves to go look for kyle well then about 30 minutes later he is back at the door cause he cant find kyle and right when he got there kyle called again so finally after he gets on the phone and leaves me and ashley finally get some sleep unfortunetly I was up for about another hour cause I had a headache and was itchin my ass off cause I had to take some sinus headache medicin cause I had no other pain killers and to make it worse i had to take it with water. Well finally I get to sleep and im sleepin good and the phone rings it was ashleys dad askin if we wanted him to leave the door unlocked cause my shit was in there well after that I go back to sleep and then ashleys mom comes to her room asking her at nine oclock in the mornin if she will babysit her little sister and ashley tells her no and she leaves well we decide since we cant get no sleep we will go to her dads and get something to drink and eat cause her mom didnt have shit but water well we go to her dads and the fucking door was locked so we decide to go to the buildings her dad owns and where he usually works at well to get there we had to fucking walk so heres my ass at nine o clock in the morning with a fucking hangover from hell never had one like that walking from andy devine to fucking bumfuckedegypt on stoktonhill long ass way when your hung over in fucking kikwears a spagetti strap shirt in which one of the straps were broke cause it broke the night before and in a grey hoodie thingy it was hot ass hell but I could take off my hoodie cause I had no bra and it was white so I was screwed well we finally get to her dads other buildings thanks goodness he was there he gave us a ride back to the room and unlocked the door so I took a cold ass shower and it felt good well I never got to go back to sleep that day but oh well I guess. So that was very exciting. Well I went to school yesterday the reason being im not there today is because I wasnt feelin good and I dont have to go back till friday cause my mom went out of town to go to a concert and told me I could stay home kik ass huh? yeah its hella cool well yesterday was a long ass day also my ex boyfriend showed his ass and layed the guilt trip on me in front of everyone in fifth hour pissed me off its a long ass story have to tell ya another time then I had night track after school so I didnt leave school until like 5:30 and didnt get home until like 7 so You could say it was a very long day. I got to talk to adam last night were going into business lol were going to be dealers together heheh that boi is crazy but hes my friend and cool as hell. My friend Todd called me today we talked on the phone for like an hour and shit it was cool I miss his ass hes so funny. I miss all my friends and cant wait to see them again hopefully I wont have a problem gettin a plane ticket to North carolina in may hopefully this war dont fuck things up where I cant see my friends cause that will totally piss me off dont make me go up to president bush and knock the shit out of him I cant stand this war I think we should just go over there and fucking drop one big ass bomb on them and kill them all I mean look at all the shit that happened to our people talking about they dont want to kill innocent people well fuck a lot of our innocent people got killed I know two things dont make a right I just want the shit to end the faster the better is the way I see it but anywho enough about the war I hear enough about it on the tv. Wow I really dont have anything else to talk about except my ex is crazy in class yesterday he was laying this big ass guilt trip it all started off as him writtin me a letter telling me first I dump him then he asks me back out I tell him no and now I want to break our friendship well first of all I am not trying to break our friendship and I told him that then he asked me why I was givin him dirty looks ok how about no i was looking at pictures and the sun was in my eye and maybe thats what he was talking about I was not givin him dirty looks then he starts off with this long ass speech on how that he is really hurting and that he cares about me alot and that I broke his heart and caused all this hurt and how when he said he loved me he meant it and hes been havin to drink because of me cause thats the only way he can not think about it and how he wants me to hurt like him and that he wants me to know how mmuch he was hurting and that he is going to dedicate the song swing swing to me my the all american rejects I didnt say anything to him I just sat there cause I didnt know what the hell to say and he goes on and on and then was like how does it feel it hurts huh? how does it feel? your going to pay for what you did to me and all this shit dude it fucking pissed me off I mean I wasnt trying to hurt the guy and we only dated a month I just cant be in a relationship right now I need some time to figure myself out dude for realz I need time to gind out who I am and what I want to be and all this other shit and I cant see myself doing that in a relationship I dont know if anyone has any advice I sure could use it but I am going to go for now cause If anyone is actually reading this shit its gettin long and I am sure your tired so until next time kids remember bordem kills weed healz <3 *ShOrTbUs* 10:14 a.m. - 2003-03-25 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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